Why Do I Have Scary Intrusive Thoughts About My Baby

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You are holding your baby at the top of the stairs, and an image flashes through your mind of them falling. You are bathing them, and a horrifying thought appears out of nowhere. Maybe it is a picture of something going terribly wrong, or a thought about harm coming to them, even harm you would never want to cause. The thought is so upsetting that you feel sick, ashamed, and terrified of what it might mean. Many parents never tell anyone.

If this is happening to you, please know you are far from alone. Unwanted, frightening thoughts about a baby are one of the most common and least discussed experiences of new parenthood, and they happen to mothers, fathers, and non-birthing parents alike.

It Could Be a Lot of Things

A normal protective brain. After a baby arrives, the brain's threat detection system becomes highly tuned to danger. Research suggests that most new parents experience at least some unwanted thoughts about accidental harm to their baby, and many experience thoughts about harm they might cause, which they find disturbing. These thoughts reflect how much you want to protect your baby.

Sleep deprivation. Exhaustion makes the mind more prone to intrusive thoughts and makes them feel more convincing and harder to dismiss.

Postpartum anxiety. Constant worry about the baby's health and safety, restlessness, and a racing mind are hallmarks of perinatal anxiety, which can include frequent frightening thoughts.

Postpartum depression. Low mood, hopelessness, guilt, and feeling disconnected from the baby can come with intrusive thoughts as well.

A difficult or traumatic birth. After a frightening delivery or medical complications, intrusive images and on-edge feelings can be part of a trauma response.

When It Looks More Like Perinatal OCD or Anxiety

For some parents, intrusive thoughts become frequent, intense, and consuming. When they drive rituals and avoidance, this may be perinatal or postpartum OCD. It is a treatable anxiety-related condition, and it is important to understand what it is and what it is not.

The defining feature of these thoughts is that they are unwanted and deeply distressing. People with perinatal OCD are horrified by their thoughts precisely because the thoughts go against everything they value. Research indicates that these ego-dystonic intrusive thoughts are not associated with an increased risk of harming the baby. The distress itself is a sign that the thoughts do not reflect what you want.

Signs that OCD or anxiety may be involved include:

• Thoughts that repeat, feel sticky, and cause intense fear or guilt.
• Avoiding bathing the baby, using knives, or being alone with the baby in case you might do something.
• Repeatedly checking the baby's breathing, locks, or appliances, similar to what we describe in Why Can't I Stop Checking Things Over and Over.
• Seeking constant reassurance that you are a good parent or would never cause harm.
• Mentally reviewing, praying, or "undoing" thoughts to neutralize them.

For more on unwanted thoughts outside the perinatal period, see Why Do I Have Thoughts That Scare Me and I Don't Know Why.

This is very different from postpartum psychosis, a rare but serious emergency in which a person may lose touch with reality, and thoughts of harm may not feel wrong to them. That is why the warning signs in the box above call for immediate help.

What Can Help

• Label the thought. Telling yourself "that is an intrusive thought, not a wish or a plan" can reduce its power.
• Do not try to push thoughts away forcefully. Suppression tends to make intrusive thoughts return more often.
• Gently reduce avoidance of caring for your baby where it is safe to do so, ideally with guidance from a therapist.
• Protect sleep as much as possible, sharing night feeds when you can.
• Tell someone you trust, such as your partner, doctor, midwife, or public health nurse. Speaking the thoughts aloud often reduces shame.

Getting Support at Pacific Maple Psych Centre

If frightening thoughts about your baby are causing distress or changing how you care for them, therapy can help. Cognitive behavioural therapy, including exposure and response prevention, is highly effective for perinatal OCD and anxiety, and our clinicians approach these concerns with care and without judgment.